Do you remember that is what I would say when you were in trouble? :)
No Dearest Damond, today! Nope.
I don't really appreciate the new vocabulary you have brought into my day to day speech:
and the new one for the day:
(actually, they call it a monument... same thing)
I know you are not to blame, no one is, but just know that YOU OWE ME BIG!!!
I keep thinking about how I should be picking out a frame for your diploma and not a "monument".
I have wondered how many times Heavenly Father has received prayers asking Him to turn back time...
or I start to think maybe we are in It's a Wonderful Life and we are trying to help someone get their wings.
but then those words come back
and punch me in the stomach to let me know there is no turning back time
and this is not a movie
My mind and heart are in such a daze that sometimes life feels like it's moving at a different speed. So, when something in life pulls me into the current speed, I want to freeze time. But I realize that doesn't do me any good. I don't want to freeze time without you in it.
ex. Today, while checking your email,
I saw that your scores for Step 2 Clinical Skills had been posted.
You would have been so excited to see that you
I wasn't surprised. :)
ex #2 of being brought to current speed
Alex lost his FIRST TOOTH today.
I didn't even realize it was loose.
My initial reaction was, "what? how did this happen? He's too little, right?
monumental events are not supposed to happen anymore, right?
But since I can't turn back time and I don't want to freeze time, life has to go on.
Without you. :(
Love you forever,
PS. Alex's version of losing his tooth:
"I was walking to the car. I was eating my candy when I bite something hard. I spitted it out. When I picked it up, I saw it was my tooth. When Dad comes back alive, can we show him the picture?" -- tears!