Saturday, January 5, 2013

A Beautiful Day

Dear Damond,
       I want you to know that I woke up this morning, not believing or in any way wanting to believe that one week had already passed. Each day has felt like the minutes move slower than before. Never in all of our planning did we think this day possible. At least not yet. If you remember, I asked to go first, but not for at least another 50 years. Nevertheless, this day came. I have so much to say to you, but today I want to just focus on today.
       I wanted it to be a dark and dreary day. But it wasn't. It was a beautiful, sunny, crisp winter day. It was a day that would usually remind me of why I love Arizona. The sun was shining bright, the sky was a beautiful blue. It was a gorgeous day to celebrate your life here on earth.
      I felt you were there. Did you see how many people loved you? Love us? Love your family? Love my family? Did you see how many hearts you touched by your words and deeds? I was given so many hugs today by people that were at one time impacted by your example, your smile, your teachings, your humor, your work ethic, your positive attitude, your desire to do good and serve others, your ability to have fun, your love for sports and your love for all mankind.
      When this day was too much for me or the boys, I know we were carried by our Savior. I know that you were watching over us. I know that we were surrounded by a cloud of prayers on our behalf. I was told I am strong, but I don't think anyone is strong enough to face a day like today on their own strength.
Another reason why I am so grateful for our families. We each have such amazing families. They have engulfed me and the boys in love this past week. My family has silently and willingly done all the things I have no strength or desire to do. They continue to shower the boys with love. I cannot express how grateful I am for your family. I think the boys and I feel closest to you when we are with them. Much of who you are is because of your immediate and extended family. It was a a grand reunion. Do you remember the time Grandpa told us he would never get on those flying contraptions? Well, he did. For you.
       I truly believe that friendships are made when souls connect. Today we witnessed that you were a good friend to many people. But today, I experienced the sadness of people that were also good friends to you, me and your family. I tried my best to comfort them. I prayed for them. And I hope that they found peace in the messages and songs that were shared today.
       Today we sang your favorite song, "Because I Have Been Given Much."  I know that you lived your life by the words of this song.          
                                      "Because I have been given much, I too must give.
                                       I shall give love to those in need. I'll show that love by word and deed."
but today, I saw countless others living this song. I am humbled by the many people that served our family to create such a beautiful service and memory for us. I am filled with gratitude for the countless acts of service that have been done on our behalf this last week and are people that are continually doing so.
        The boys and I love you! I know you left Jacob to be my protector. He pushes away anyone he thinks is making me cry. Every time Alex gives me one of his long bear hugs, I know you sent him. Thomas has had to quickly fill your shoes. He is still too little for such big shoes, but I am grateful for the deep footprints you have left behind in his heart. When the nice gentleman with the beautiful voice sang, "Come Thou Fount" I was sadly remembering the day you proposed. Thomas wrapped him arms around me told me not to worry, that we would see you again.
         So, on a day that was supposed to be dark and dreary, but was actually beautiful and bright. we took care of each other. We are grateful for the sweet memories that were shared and the sweet spirit we felt.
       
         for time and all eternity, Adriana

12 comments:

Daniel and Dawn said...

Thanks for your toughts. I love you Farar Family. Adriana so thankful you have your boys & the lord there to carry you on the tough days. Love you.

cfarar said...

Adriana,

You are truly amazing. Thanks for sharing your thoughts. My heart aches. We love you so much!!!!!

cec said...

Adriana,
This is so touching and a beautiful tribute to your sweet husband. You have been in my prayers and my heart all week and will continue to be. I am moved by your strength but I think I have always seen that strength and unshakeable faith in you. Sending love,
Cecily Horsley

Dani said...

Thank you for sharing this. I love to hear how you are feeling & I gain strength from your faith.

Catie and Nate said...

You truly are an amazing woman Adriana! We love you and your wonderful family so much!

Andrea said...

We love you Adriana!

Bianca said...

Oh Adriana,
It was such a beautiful day and the spirit was so strong. I couldn't make the viewing but was able to break away from work for the service. I can't tell you how many times I have cried for you thinking of my own three little kids.
I was just thinking how wonderful it is to have this gospel; that we know our purpose here on this earth. Even tho Damond's passing was sudden and unexpected, the Lord had called him back when he intended to. It doesn't make the heart ache any less but we can find comfort thru our Savior.
Thanks for your example and your testimony. The service was truly beautiful. You have an amazing family! We love you and pray for you daily.
Much love,
The West Family

EmilyCC said...

Adriana, this is such a beautiful love letter. Thank you for sharing it.

Pacers said...

Adriana, thank you for sharing. I'm sitting here crying. We love you here too in PA. I was glad to hear that my Dad, Uncle Dave, was able to come out to the funeral because I know all of us wished to be there with you.

Lots of Love, Stephanie

Danielle Hirschi said...

Thanks for letting us be apart of this day! Damond is our Hero!

Mauzy Fam said...

Adriana, You are truly an inspiration! I'm so sorry for what you are going through. This was so beautifully written. Thank you so much for sharing. I feel so blessed to be a part of that day. What a horrible way to meet you, but I'm grateful I did. You are absolutely beautiful inside and out. Hang in there.
Tamra

Los Peña said...

You and the boys are always on our minds, I know your Damond and my Eva are rooting for us!