Sunday, October 17, 2010

Enduring to the End

A couple of weeks ago, I was asked to give a talk. I almost started crying and then I was told the topic, Enduring to the End. :) very fitting. I thought, for sure all of my trails and tribulations could fill up 10 to 15 min :) so Heavenly Father sent me some more. It was a tough week! But, that talk has blessed me week after week since then. No, I did not stand up and recite all the many trials I've faced these last nine months, but in preparing for the talk I learned how to Endure to the End "well". I can't say that I have perfected it, but in the last month when I have felt that I could not take another day, another hour or minute of this, the words of my talk have seeped back into mind and reminded me what I need to do. So one more week! All I know, is that one week from tomorrow, I better, at least be in the hospital delivering this baby!
My feelings are generally, just that I want this baby out, but I occasionally start to feel anxious about having #3. What is it going to be like to have a newborn again? How am I going to manage three? Alex has been acting up a little bit lately and I think it's due to hearing, "no, it's for the baby," as I have cleaned and put together all of the baby stuff. For the most part he likes to rub my belly or kiss it and say, "I love baby", but I worry about his adjustment. Thomas, on the other hand, continues to be so excited and asks when are we going to go "pick up the baby"? He even said that whenever somebody babysits them, he will give the baby the bottle. (which is funny, because they rarely, ever, have babysitters. So, I know that he will be helpful.
We have had many wonderful offers of help, so I know we will be taken care of, but I still get anxious. but then I remind myself that I won't be sick anymore and, therefore, will be ready to take on the world :D
Fall is finally here! I love the changing of the leaves and the cooler weather. It hasn't been too cool, but anything is better than hot. I, realized that I had maybe one pregnant picture of Alex, so this time I tried a little harder. So, instead of one, maybe with this one I have five :)
This will probably be the last. Enjoy the beautiful trees and not so much my hugeness! :D


Linsey F said...

Oh you are amazing! That's all I can say. And you look beautiful! I wish I was there to help you. Let us know as soon as baby arrives! We'll pray he comes soon!!!

EmilyCC said...

Oh, I had my fingers crossed that this was the post saying your baby had come.

You're amazing for doing this w/Damon gone so much at school and with the nausea you have to deal with.

Makes me wish we could be miserable 3rd trimesters in the same state :)

Much luck, my dear!

Alice said...

So beautiful. I hope everything goes well. We are keeping you in our prayers.

J. said...

You are one hot pregnant lady! The fall colors are beautiful there. I can't wait to her that numero tres is here! :) I'll be praying for all of you.